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3 years ago on June 15th 2014 I decided life was no longer worth living. 3 years ago I decided that no sunset, no tree, no flower, no person could ever make me want to stay in a world where all I could find were reasons telling me to go. 3 years ago I attempted to kill myself for the first time, and 3 years ago, I also thankfully did not succeed. After a week in the psych ward and with a doctors all right, I was sent back into the world almost the same as I had been except for with one very important change having occurred within myself. I finally realized that there never would be a sunset or a tree or a flower or especially a person to make me want to stay, because that person would always have to come down to being myself. I finally realized that I did not want to die as I was nearly dead on the inside, but in fact, no, I wanted to live. Three years ago, I put a blade to my wrists to match all the other scars I put there just a few months earlier, but a week later, I decided that to me they were no longer scars, an ugly word, but instead they were stripes and I had earned them. And so I fought. And it fucking sucked. And it was hard. I wasn’t born a tiger, so I had to fight hard for these stripes. And so three years ago I sat on my bedroom floor as a freshman thinking I wasn’t even going to wake up the next morning to see the sunrise. But Three years later here I am walking into my last day of high school as a senior sure of the fact that I will be awake for a million more sunrises to come, and all I wanna say is for the love of god, hug your mother, tell the person you love that you love them, and for fucks sake, please remember, it may not get better but it sure as hell gets brighter and brighter
every day.
Thank you to everybody who has supported and helped me through every step of the way, and a big fuck you to all the others who tried stepping on my toes and called me weak. 🙂